1. Be Positive
2. Negotiate your credit card rates ( DO NOT miss minimum payments)
3. Reduce Cable Packages
4. Reduce Cell Phone Plans
5. Reduce/Cancel Gym Memberships
6. Reduce Entertainment Expenses
7. Reduce Dining Out
8. Put some of your Savings in a short term CD/ Start Saving!
9. Take Public Transportation
10. Be Positive

The extra money should be put to the side in a savings account.

I am soft and supple the way a woman should be, although I have the heart of a lion trying to be free.

I do a lot of things and not all of them satisfy me. I take on a lot of challenges that don’t necessarily challenge me. With everything thing that I do and do not do, I am always looking to define who it is, or what it is I want to be.

A lot gets lost in translation as I bite my tongue, pace my self, and spare others that cross my lines. I am on a journey of a lifetime. My lifeline.

For three years I have been trying to share my soul with the world. I have honestly been trying to make the world a better place. Sharing all information that I believe to be useful in someones life to help them make a better decision, another choice, or to understand alternatives that are available.

I always wonder if I am comprimising too much by doing too much.

I am a woman and I am trying to share.

I was accepted into New York Law School on July 21, 2008 and I am completely proud of myself. Being accepted into law school was a journey that had taken many detours, stops, and starts.

My life has been filled with ups and downs like every other person on the planet, but from my perspective the downs have been way downs. It starts with the amount of drugs in my life and how at age five I knew what a crack pipe looked like. I was fortunate enough to not be a drug addict at 5, but there were people in my life that were.

But this purging of my soul is not about drugs or the people who abused them, or was abused by drugs rather. It is about the losses that I cannot shake.

When I was ten years old my best friend died, my sister. It is devastating, a person who is responsible for everything you know, and encourages you to be the smartest, funniest person in the world, is just removed from you life, forever.

It’s about hitting milestones in your life, and your go to persons just going away. My cousin died my first year of college, the person who stepped in after my sister died to be my big brother. The guy who wouldn’t let me talk to any other guys, and continually reminded me that it was cool to be smart, and wouldn’t allow me to have a low self esteem, when I believed I was ugly, and too fat. It is about the guy who was too proud to say a real good bye when I left, so we never really got to say good bye at all.

It is about my grandfather, who supported everything about me. Who loved me blindly and gave to me freely. It is about knowing the sacrifices he made for me, to help me and not being able to be thankful enough.

My grandmother, the funniest person in the entire world, the smartest, most loving woman I have ever met, who taught me what it means to love in this world. Who would brag about me to her friend’s contempt. Who would remind me that she had over 50 years on me, to help me keep things in perspective, as she consoled my tears, as I worked though all the strife.

This is about the people who know where I have come from, and know how hard and difficult things have been without thinking I am trying to strum a violin. It is about knowing that I am not looking for sympathy, but understanding how hard I have worked to not become a victim of circumstances. It is because the people who helped me become the woman that I am and the woman that I strive to be are here only in spirit, when I desperately want them, and need them here with me, so they can see that I did it, and I am doing it!

Fear is a crippling disease and its only remedy is courage. Courage is staring in the face of fear and standing as tall as shaky knees will allow. You have already failed if you are too afraid to try, let go of trying to perfect, as human beings we are already perfect and full of glory, it is when we exercise our perfection, our humanness we gain invaluable insight, and insight on life simply by trying.

Please share your story with over coming fear with the rest of us!

Be Excellent Always!

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I am tired of watching fat people kill themselves slowly. I am tired of watching people eat fried food like that is the only way possible to cook a piece of meat. I am tired of watching people pour soy sauce, hot sauce, and ketchup on everything like people didn’t travel across the world trading different spices. I am tired of watching children eat donuts and chips for breakfast, with a tall glass of soda. I am tired of looking at people wear pants that are too small for them while the cracks of their asses try to escape for some fresh air from the snatch box has been smothered to fester and die. I am tired of large stomachs spilling over jeans causing crime scenes to emerge on the poor belly button that has been compressed to be no more. I am tired of still seeing people on crack, who has ever successfully shaken the side effects of crack. I am tired of women who get beat up by their boyfriends and never call the police. I am tired of people who still smokes cigarettes and of people who get high when their jobs perform random drug test? Here is a clue, gets a job that doesn’t perform random drug testing. I am tired of little boys holding on to being fly, that can’t read, and I am tired of the little girls that hang all over them hoping to be pretty as the seat of their jeans are filthy and hasn’t seen the day and the life in a wash machine. I am tired of their parents that will beg, borrow, and steal to make sure they have the brand new, new, but won’t sit with them and read. I am tired of bad rap, and bad R&B, I am tired of reality TV. I am tired of people who don’t go hard, I am tired of people that don’t commit and I am tired of people that waste space and air talking about absolutely nothing-like totally. I am tired of stupid and just want to see it end.

                  A person will always be thankful to find a friend that will allow them to cry on their shoulder, give them a shove when they need a push, and to be honest with them, even when the truth hurts. The most invaluable aspect of friendship is laughter; to be able to laugh with your friends forges a bond that tears cannot hold together. It is my personal belief that in order for a person to be a friend they need to be THERE. There are no substitutes for a person’s presence. In the age of technology we rely on emails, text messages, and phone calls to stay in touch, but  getting together to be with one another comes far and few between as we juggle our professional and romantic lives, forgetting the bond of friendship that helps us handle day to day task with more confidence, grace, and support.

               Don’t be too busy to sit down and have a good laugh. The healing power of laughter can change your life. Love as often as you can and you will watch your professional and romantic endeavors excel, because laughter will make you a better person.

                I stretch my hands towards the sky and reach for the stars that are shining above me. I keep my mind open to entertain all things so that I can keep my mind growing. I have a thirst that I cannot quench when it comes to making my dreams come true,big dreams mean there are big things to do. I often have people tell me that I need to work on one thing at a time but that is something that my mind has not been programmed to do. I am a thinker and thinking is what I do.

                 My mind is what I am most proud of, it is where I fancy myself and spend most of my days. I believe if I share my thoughts I will excel in this world in a way that allows me to always remain true to who I am and who I aspire to be. I am a helper, a fixer, a duality of motivation and isolation. I look to motivate those around me while I isolate myself at some point during the process.

                I need some things to happen, simple things, but things I have yet to do to date. I need a voice over demo, I want to do voice overs on The Boondocks cartoon. I also want to do voice overs for Pixar. I have very unique voice and I am funny. I will be an excellent fit for cartoons, especially cartoons targeted to an older audience.

                I need an agent, I need to shop my televison show around to all major networks to see if they will pick up my program. In needing an agent I need to write a pitch/query letter etc.

                 I also need someone to have Oprah’s people call my people, and my people would be me. I just need Oprah to call me so we can talk. I am certain that she will be both entertained and enthralled with what I have to say.

                 I am diligent about being a more positive person , because I can see the sun shine on every person situation that I meet, but as for myself I need to do more work.

                With all of this going on I am also pursuing a law career. It is just who I am, I love information.  I love to learn and I love to be challanged.

P.S. I also have a full time job! I work for a really cool company too so I am looking to do my best there as well because the people that I work with are great and that is a  blessing. I know there are plenty of people that work at jobs they hate and you simply need to quit…if your job makes you ill in the morning, you need to leave that situation immediately.

 Remember chase love not money! 

I am wrong, I messed up, and “it was my error” are noble words. It takes an honorable human being to admit when they are wrong because it establishes that fact that they are not afraid of the truth as well as displaying that they are not afraid to take risk even if the results my be faulty. You will find this lack of honor and accountability in your day to day without fail. It is plaguing office buildings, schools, and relationships. It is a social boo boo that needs to be corrected. Admitting mistakes should be followed with a level of respect rather than behind the back snickering. Students should be encouraged to raise their hands and be congratulated for mistakes not ridicule, and relationships should be accepting of positive corrections. Why do people hate to be wrong? Is it because they hate to admit it? If we removed the taboo of being wrong with being stupid we the world could make this place a better place to live. Our darkest demons are hidden behind the notions of people not wanting to admit they were wrong, so they keep plowing in the wrong direction hoping to make things right. It is clear by the current state of affairs on this planet that that philosophy is simply wrong.

I am thankful that there were so many people that were not afraid to be free. I am thankful to those who lost their life to stand for something in life. I am thankful that in 2008 Barack Obama can run for presidency when forty years ago he would not have been able to ride in the front of a bus! I am thankful that someone believed that they could foster change with kindness and persistence, even in the face of violence and hatered.